6 months

Dear Fenix,

You are half way to your first birthday. Why are you growing up SO quickly and how can I make it stop? We can send people into space and to the moon but we haven't found out a way to slow down the rate that babies grow up. Ridiculous! 

I know I always say that every month is my favorite but this month has been my absolute favorite, hands down.

We were very excited to buy you a bouncer until we learned that you are too fat for it. Well, you are almost too fat, you are at the max limit of weight. Honestly, we did not want to spend more than $100 on something you would grow out of in a month or so. Luckily, your Auntie Seddy let us borrow your cousin Natalia's bouncer. Yay for family and yay for free! You love your walker, LOVE it. We had no idea what would happen when we put you in the bouncer. This is what happened after a minute of you in it:

YOU LOVE IT! It needs to be noted that you look like a ballerina. I laughed so hard that I cried. You bounced so hard that we were nervous that you may break the thing!

Speaking of you being fat (I say that with the most love a mother can use!) we took you to the CHP to get your big boy car seat checked and properly installed. 7 out 10 car seats are installed wrong and car accidents are the number 1 killer of children. When you hear statistics like that, I can't understand why parents don't take their car seats to get checked. It's free, takes only an hour of your time and it could save your child's life! Anyways, your new car seat is triple the size of your infant one and you look so tiny in it, which is rare! 

I know you may think it is ridiculous but we bought you a Boba Carrier and I am not even kidding, that thing has changed my life. You love being held and I like the use of my arms, enter the Boba. Because you are so heavy (you weigh as much as an average 1 year old) other carriers just will not do. I need something with extreme support and this thing feels like a dream. You fall asleep in it every time! When you refuse to take your naps and we have tried every other option, I will put you in this and you will fall asleep within 5 minutes. If I ever meet the maker of the Boba I will give them a BIG hug. 

Your sleep pattern is so inconsistent. Some nights you go to sleep without a fight or one peep. Other nights it is a struggle. One night you woke up every 2 hours and then 5 hours in you refused to go back to sleep and would not stop crying. We finally put you in your crib and let you cry it out. This whole, CIO thing, is the absolute worst and definitely the hardest thing I have ever had to go through as a parent. Your dad and I have got into many "discussions" about this and we are still not on the same page. I have talked about it many times on my blog but I can't stress enough how incredibly painful it is for me to hear you cry from more than 30 seconds. My heart literally feels like it is breaking. That night you wouldn't sleep, I broke down. I cried and screamed into my pillow. I was so frustrated with everything and my heart couldn't take hearing you. That was one of our worst nights.

On a happier note, you went to a birthday party for the first time and you were perfect. You didn't cry or whine once! It was completely unplanned but we all wore green and blue plaid shirts. This happens often so you better get used to it. 

When we left you looked like you were really sad to go.

For a month or so you had been trying to roll over. You'd get on your side and then your arm would be pinned under your body and then you couldn't figure out that you need to swing your upper leg over in order to roll over AND move your arm from underneath. You eventually figured most of it out but couldn't get enough momentum to roll your body all the way.
One night, I was getting you ready for bed, your aunt Karen and uncle Adam were over, you were in your crib and I was just about to put your pajamas on. You were trying to roll over and I had a feeling that you were going to do the real thing. I called your dad and told him to get the camera, I think this is it! We cheered you on for about a minute a finally, you did it. You rolled over for the first time and we caught it all on camera! 

(You can go on my Youtube channel, or should I say Fenix channel and see both of the videos in a bigger, better quality format.)

The only way to describe the emotions I was feeling, watching you do this complicated range of motions, was it felt like it did when I got my epidural and it finally kicked in. I was on cloud 9 and I am pretty sure I was literally beaming light, that is how proud I was.

I know I shouldn't be surprised by this whatsoever but it amazes me how much you LOVE to eat your baby food! There needs to be a greater word to describe your feelings toward eating. Carrots are still your favorite followed by apples, bananas, pears and when you tried sweet potatoes again, you were hooked. You did NOT like sweet peas and I don't blame you. They looked and smelled awful and I still won't eat them. We tried giving you mangoes and peaches but they may have been too acidic for you because you made the funniest faces and were over it very quickly. Most 6 month old are eating 1st foods (smallest portion available) but not my son. Nope. You eat 2nd foods (almost double the portion) and you still don't seem to be full.

You also learned how to clap! It isn't a perfect clap, it is more like your fists keep hitting each other but whenever I clap and say YAY! you "clap" with me! It's funny because you are actually better at clapping your feet together than your hands. Your newest cool trick is sticking your tongue out, all day, everyday. In the last few weeks almost all of the pictures I have of you are with your tongue sticking out.

If you are whining or crying, all I have to do is sing the Itsy Bitsy Spider. You can't get enough of that song, especially the part when it rains. On car rides I have sung this to you at least 20 times just to pacify you and it works every time.

We also had our first official family photo shoot! This is something else you are going to have to get used to because, in case you haven't noticed, mama likes to taking pictures of you! 

You are the absolute sweetest baby I have ever met. You are always laughing and smiling which means that I am also always laughing and smiling. I have never enjoyed anything in my entire life, as much as I enjoy being your mom. You are such a blessing and I can never convey how much I love you. Thank you for bringing your father and I so much closer. I love your relationship with him and seeing the way that he looks at you, with so much love, makes me the happiest person that ever lived. You, your Dad and Molly complete me. 

I love you, for forever and ever. Always.

Love, Mama