There was another time in my life

I have been listening to Relient K a lot lately. The Birds and the Bee Sides is quickly become my favorite album. Their lyrics are so uplifting and positive. I can't wait to take Fenix to see them! 

"I know that I've come a long way
My heart's headed in the right place
But sometimes your past's hard to face
But now I know you

 There was another time in my life
Before I knew you

 I sailed through the high winds and waves
I wondered if I could be saved
But I have emerged unscathed
Because I know you

 There was another time in my life
Before I knew you

 Before I knew you
Before I could see
That you could take all my troubles from me
Before I knew you
I was so incomplete"

I love when songs apply directly to your past circumstances.
I never want to become the person I once was. I have changed so much of myself to reflect who I want to be, from the way I talk, what I listen to and how I dress. Just because Fenix isn't around, doesn't mean that I get the opportunity to turn the filter off. The way I see it, the filter is permanently on.  I want my son to learn through my actions and the most important of those are that I truly love God and that I am also deeply in love with my husband.

I am a representative of Christ.


That is a big responsibility and I unfortunately fall every day. I am not perfect and I never will be. People are going to make a snap judgement of my faith just by looking at or talking with me.

John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Thanks to God's everlasting grace, I am saved and my sins are washed away.

I have already lost friends along the way on my quest to be a woman of God and I may lose more. I am all about quality versus quantity so I am okay with losing more. I want my friends to have a desire in their heart to love the Lord. I want positive, uplifting people around my son. I want my friends to support and help strengthen my relationship with God and I pray that I can do the same.

I have prayed that I would be surrounded by God fearing and God loving women and God has answered my prayers! To all the Christian mamas I have met in the last few months, thank you, for being you.


Cause it seems I get so hung up on the history of what's gone wrong
And the hope of a new day is sometimes hard to see
But I'm finally catching on to it, yeah, the past is just a conduit 
And the light, there at the end is where I'll be
Cause I'm on the up and up, I'm on the up and up
And I haven't given up, given up on what I know I'm capable of
Yeah, I'm on the up and up and yeah, there's nothing left to prove
Cause I'm just trying to be a better version of me for you
A better version of me for you